Here I am again.
Guess blogger is the only one listening now.

I'm sure no one I know reads this dead blog.
If you do know me and happen to pass by, I guess it's fate then.
Or whatever you call that.


I've never felt this way before.
Just reminiscing the past all the time and feeling so damn nostalgic.
I just can't seem to shake off all that attachment.
It seems as though nothing can make me feel any better.
I really thought feelings will fade over time, but instead,

It just intensifies.


My heart just can't contain anything anymore,
and it really seems impossible to empty all those memories.







Mayb, just mayb,
the only way to get out of this,
is to sink even deeper into another one.

I still can't.







Doubt I ever will.

I guess no one reads this blog now so i'm gonna just post whatever i want.


i don't know why i'm feeling this way right now.
i don't know why i'm even so f-ing affected right now.
i don't know why i'm caught in this stupid mess again.
i don't know why i'm just so vulnerable in front of you.

i'd never thought things would come to such a state.
i'd never thought things could change so fast.
i'd never thought things would become so complicated.
i'd never thought things would affect me this much.


if i had known,
how i wish i'd never met you.

now all these are nothing but false hopes,
again.

mayb i don't even know what i'm hoping for in the first place.







but i'm hurting really badly now,
and you don't even give a shit.

this's the first time I'm feeling this just before season.







mayb i should just delete this post.

Chris Medina - What Are Words




Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see

Every single promise I keep
Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them when you say them

What are words
If they're only for good times then they don't

When it's love yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent
Just for me and I know I'm meant
To be where I am and I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them when you say them

What are words
If they're only for good times then they don't

When it's love yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more

Every single promise I keep
Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel
Close

O
M
G
.

this blog's so freaking dead that even I forgot its existence.

i guess it has 'upgraded' itself to a private blog ard lah.
since no one will read it anw.

oh well.

don't know why the sudden urge to blog after so long.
might had probably felt like blogging but just simply don't have the time to.

k let's talk abt today.

first thing i was late for school today. A.G.A.I.N.
have been late for almost the whole week ard.

second thing is that i got a new injury today during trng. A.G.A.I.N.
fara is right man. getting injured is like my hobby ard.
i simply just can't stop collecting new ones-.-

third thing's i might not play ______ ard.
sigh i really don't know if i should feel good abt that.
at least i don't now. or nothing can now.
i just feel like a back-up plan in this whole shit.
and that totally sucks.

National Champion seems to be further than it ever is right now.
sigh.

i don't know how screwed my As will be if this nats is screwed.
don't even wanna imagine.

the stakes are just so uncontrollably high.
it's either HELL or HEAVEN.

all i can do now is just simply pray.
pray for God's miracle if it's what it takes.







just make me hate you once and for all.
mayb I'll feel so much better.

I WANT TRNG TO START RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!